Baby Talk ~ First Trimester & My Journey So Far

I'm having my 20 week scan tomorrow (so excited, I'm hopefully going to find out what where having!), so I thought I'd describe my pregnancy journey so far and how I've found the first trimester.

My boyfriend Anthony and I had spoken about trying for a baby for a while
when we first moved in together but we decided we would wait a year before we tried. So in August last we started trying to conceive, luckily it didn't take us took long and before long we were expecting. It was in October that I woke one morning and my boobs felt different, I couldn't explain it I just thought to myself I must be pregnant. We decided to wait to see if my period came and when it didn't we took the test and it had the most wonderful outcome. I was so nervous when we took the test as I didn't want to get my hopes up and I actually couldn't go in the bathroom to look at the test after the three minutes was up, as I was too scared. But when Anthony came into the living room with the biggest grin I knew we were expecting.
In my Hello Again post I mentioned the morning sickness. This was torture for me. It's funny I hadn't really thought about it at all when we were trying to conceive. I just thought I want a baby. Almost as soon as I found out I was expecting the sickness started. I seemed to go from normal Hayley to pregnant Hayley overnight. Everything I ate tasted different, everything around me smelt different and I felt so overwhelmed that when I started being sick I just didn't cope well. Anthony was so wonderful helping with bottles of water and just putting up with me throwing up all the time. Thankfully after 13 weeks it had pretty much stopped, I get the odd day now and then that I have a wobble and throw up but overall my sickness has subsided. I think my trouble was that I was so panicky every time threw up, you see every since I was a child I have hated being sick and find it one of the most horrible experiences. So when the sickness started with full force I went into meltdown.

Only a few weeks back did I start to really let the news settle in and enjoy everything. At first I was so overwhelmed by everything that I hadn't had a chance to really enjoy the fact that I'm going to be a mother soon. I over think everything and that's exactly what happened when I got pregnant. I had such terribly worrying thoughts about losing the baby to Anthony leaving me. I kept it all to myself for a few weeks and that was just the worst thing I could have done. Eventually I opened up to Anthony and he was wonderful saying that what ever happened he was there for me and I had nothing to worry about. Of course my fears didn't just go away but I felt so much better after I finally opened up and spoke to him about it all.

As the weeks have gone on I've started signing up to anything baby related online and every time I go shopping I can be found down the baby aisle. I have become quite obsessed with all the baby pages on facebook atm. There is so much information and advice on there. I also have a great app that shows you how big the baby is each week and offers tips and advice on all your symptoms each week. Last week my baby was the size of an old fashioned gameboy. That made me chuckle so much when I saw it.

We haven't bought many things yet as we want to see what were having first then we can get pink for a girl and blue for a boy. I'm not saying that's the only colour they will wear but I just really want to get either all boy or all girl bits. If I'm totally honest I would love a girl but a boy would be amazing too. I'm just so over the moon that I'm finally going to be a mother. Since a small child the only thing I've ever really know I want from life is to be a mum. I've always had this longing to bring a child into the world and give it my heart. I can't wait to meet my baby and enjoy all the things that come with having a child.

The first scan at 7 weeks was amazing. I cried and laughed all at the same time. I was so nervous going in but so over joyed coming out. As I laid on the bed and waited for our baby to come onto the screen I kept looking at Anthony and he looked more nervous than me. It was amazing, almost instantly I started crying tears of joy then I got all giggly and the nurse had to tell me to calm down as she couldn't get a clear picture of our baby. I carry the pictures around with me always now and love looking at them whenever I can.

Things at work have changed quite a bit for me, I now spend most of my time on the tills, which is very different for me. Being an assistant manager usually involves a lot of different things but the health and safety policy has quite a few rules so for now I'm back to being a till girl. It's funny I said to my sister that I started on the tills in my job in retail and I'm sort of ending it back on the tills. For now I haven't made any clear plans on what will happen after I've had the baby, but all I know is that I don't want to work full time if I can afford not to. I'd much prefer to be there raising my own child.

Hope you don't mind me sharing my pregnancy journey with you all. I suppose it's a sort of lifestyle post and you all know I love sharing my life.

Thanks Guys
Love Hayley



7 comments:

  1. I really enjoyed reading your first trimester update. Are you hoping for any particular gender when you go for your 20 week scan? I bet the weeks are flying by!
    Becky; http://www.rebeccamarie.co.uk xxx

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    1. Thanks Rebecca I'm glad you enjoyed it. I enjoyed writing it. The weeks are flying by very quickly.

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  2. I really hope you can wart parttime later, when your child is a bit older. I think it's so important to spend time as a family. :) I hope you'll be able to enjoy every minute of it.

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    1. Thanks hun yes that would be great, I'm looking into working from home just need to make sure I can ear enough!

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  3. This was really great to read Hayley :) I really enjoyed reading about how you have been getting on (shows the differences for each Pregnancy) You are honestly not alone with the feelings of thinking your boyfriend will leave or that you will lose the baby. I have the exact same feelings about my boyfriend and the baby, I don't think it will ever go away for me. But you worrying about the baby shows that your not going to become a mother but you are already a Mother. When your pregnant you're a mother already, Looking after your baby as well and as best as you can. I am glad your sickness has calmed down a lot :) that's really great news. There is a group/Page on facebook I am on if you would like the link to it then let me know. It's really an amazing group. If you want my phone number to text/Call them please ask me as we are going through the same thing together and you're truly a lovely person. :) xx

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    1. Aaaww thanks Sophie, so glad I'm not the only one who has all these odd feelings and thoughts. I'd love the link to the facebook group please and yes send me your number on twitter and we can text all about baby stuff.

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  4. I know how exciting this period can be for you! Nothing awful at all. It's getting harder for you, but I am sure that you enjoy every minute of your pregnancy!

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